I’m starting a new section on my blog, the journal section, where I talk about that day and maybe if there is any significance.

Sometimes there is this gap between mind and reality where things just become distant and realistic. Where does this paranormal tie just become interconnected? Will there always be something blocking the view of the future? These questions are recurring every so often, and probably not just in my own mind, either.

There are things in this world that just are unexplained, and better unexplained. Being a logical thinker means that everywhere I turn I have to demand a logical reason.

Why do I do well in school? Why do I do better in some subjects than others? Why? The answer is the most logical one… there is reasoning behind the subject. The concepts of Chemistry is easily observable in the natural world, Algebra is easily applied, and the concepts of these things are just natural.

Where is the middle ground of Chemistry and Algebra? Well you could say applied sciences, but the path I choose to go is Computer Science. I don’t know the field within Computer Science that I want to be a part of. I would love to get into Quantum Computing, but everything is theoretical.

I also find a separate connection with friendships and relationships between people, just difficult. I may be surrounded, but I don’t feel like I’m anything when it comes down to the point where friendships are measured. I’ve lost the connection between many and it’s hard to imagine how people have friends. Friends are people you could depend on, I don’t see that.

Emotion towards others are just unsatisfying, it all breaks down at one point. Where could we go from here? Nowhere.

Yet friendship is there, but it’s too hard. If you’re there, thanks.